You weren't lying when you said it would sting

 The Neighbourhood - $TING

To be honest I think this song is about us. The lyrics fits our situation so well, I couldn’t describe it better than this. I think I’m going to use this song from now on, if people ask about you. If anyone wants to know our story, they can listen to this song. Many couples got a theme song maybe this is ours.

“I tried to be someone, I lied to be someone else for you. If I had done something a little bit differently, we would’ve moved in a better direction than this, baby.” - This fits my situation so well. I really tried to be someone you could love, I even lied to be good enough for you and every day I wonder if I could have done something else, maybe our relationship wouldn't have gone so wrong.

“If you were human, if you were who I assumed you were, you wouldn't have done this. I thought I did something, but she would do anything to bring me down and she brought me down.” - I sometimes wonder if you really were human, because what you did to me was out of line. I don’t think a normal human being would’ve done that to another human. For a long time I always thought that I was the problem, that it was my own fault, but the more I think about it, the more I realize it wasn’t my fault, it was you. You brought me down for no reason, all I ever did was giving you my love.

“You say that you love me, but you act like you don't. You used to adore me, laughed at all of my jokes. Don't take this the wrong way, you put me in harm's way.” - I really did believe that you loved me, but oh boy I was wrong. You wouldn’t have torn out my heart and stepped on it, if you did love me. You really hurt me and all I did was taking in all of your bullshit and thinking I was the problem that it was my fault you got so mad, but it never was, it was you.

“Imagine our children, how fucked would they be? Mommy's a psycho, daddy lives in a dream. Don't take this the wrong way.” - Everything about this sentence is so right, but I would like to change it to Daddy’s a psycho, mommy lives in a dream. That sounds more right. You were a psycho and I was living in a dream. So I guess if we got any children they would be pretty fucked up.

“I told you I'm sorry, couldn't thank you enough. I thought that I loved you but we weren't in love, we weren't in love.” - I would always apologize when you got mad, even when it wasn’t my fault, but can you blame me? I was afraid you would leave me so I did everything you asked me for and hoped that it was enough, but it wasn’t. For so many years I was sure you were the one, I was sure I loved you with all my heart, but sometimes I think that our love only were an obsession. We were obsessed with each other, but we didn’t love each other. I’m not sure though, because sometimes when I’m sitting alone in my room, thinking about you, it feels like I still love you.

“You were my dream, the way we would fuck. You liked to think, we would push through the bad. Ignoring the problems just to hold what we had.” - You really were my dream. To be honest in your good periods you were the best, but you had to many bad periods. We would always ignore our problems; we would never talk about it because we were afraid of what it would do to our relationship. Maybe if we had talked about it, our situation would have been different, but it isn't and now you are gone and we will probably never talk or even see each other again. I’m still trying to let you go, but sometimes I miss you even though I really don’t want to.